Amazed

 Well another day has past and I'm still here. It is amazing this journey that God has chosen for me and my family. I have been amazed at how people have stepped up and stepped into my life. I really didn't see how anything good could come out of all that has happened in the past 2 months. But thankfully, God has really used some very special people to restore my faith in humanity. My family is huge but we have never really been close. My parents have really stepped up and helped out. It's kinda strange to have such a large family and still feel alone but for a long time it's been that way. I have always tried to get along with everyone and for the most part I do. But I also stay to myself alot to. My siblings have really impressed me with their being here when I need them. cooking supper, bringing Chick-fil-a (my fave) and just knowing they are praying for me. I'll probably never call on them to take me anywhere or to come visit or anything else, but knowing they are there helps alot. My church family has gone above and beyond any expectations that I could have ever had of them. Christmas season is a hard time for everyone. It's kinda funny how the people that step up and demonstrate love are not always the people you think of first. God has people in place that He can use and I have learned to focus on these people and not the ones that have not met expectations. I am bless beyond measure to have a large family and a large church family but I have another family that continues to bless me and mine. That is the family of believers that we have grown to love through our band Justifi'd. My band mates are literally my brothers. I know they have my back and are praying daily. I have learned more in the last two months about ministry than I did in the previous 3 years in the band. Ministry is about sharing God with people in a real way. Not lip service, not going through the motions. Anyone can get up and sing a song but God chosen who He uses to lead worship. God is love and He uses people to show us that love. I'm looking forward to getting back out there after the first of the year and get started sharing what God is doing for me through Y'all on this journey. The examples, the stories, the blessings, God has AMAZED me. I have a long way to go to get this all behind me but I'm not gonna sit here and wait for it to pass before I move on. God is using this trial to teach me things I desperately needed to know. Building testimony! God will make this trial a blessing and maybe soon we'll get to come share it with you in person!!