It's Chemo Time Again!!

Well it's time for round two! I start my second round on chemotherapy today. So far, the side effects from the first round where not too bad. Not looking forward to the limited diet again but I am glad to be moving forward in my treatment. I still and may never will understand the reason behind this trial but I'm gonna learn from it and move forward. I am still having some minor seizure activity that is a little unsettling. The thought of being in public and having a full blown seizure is scary. The problem with a seizure is that there is not really anything that can be done once it starts. I was asked at church last night if I have asked God why? Why me? Why cancer? And my honest answer was no! How can I accept the good things that God has given me and the question the trials? I deserve nothing short of a life in Hell separated from God. For I am just a sinner that God chose to send His Son to die for. I surely didn't deserve that. Since I have been diagnosed, others have shared their cancer stories with me and it would be selfish for me to ask why I've been burdened with cancer when I didn't ask that question for anyone else. One of my youth asked the question "Why does bad things happen to good people?" That answer is finally simple. There is no such things as good people. Jesus himself, after being called "good master" said there is none good save one, God. God made me, knows the plan He has for me, and holds tomorrow in the palm of His hand, saw fit to saddle me with this, then there is a reason and although I am required to battle through it, it doesn't require my understanding. I know that God has allowed me to reach many people through this blog even that I would not have ever met other wise. God knows what He is doing! I can't see past the end of my own nose sometimes. I do not know what tomorrow brings but I do know that God loves me and somehow, He will work this to my good. My name is Jason Horn, and I Am Second!!