Am I Second?

A couple of years ago, I got introduced to a website call iamsecond.com. It is a website that gives some famous Christian people a venue to share their testimony. There are people on there from all walks of life. Race car Drivers, Actors, Athletes, Rockers, you name it they got it. It allows you a glimpse into there world. I adopted this website as a ministry tool not only for myself, but I also introduced it to my youth group and to groups I got the opportunity to stand up in front of. I bought stickers and bracelets that say iamsecond to remind me. I am second is a concept that is based on the will of God being first in my life. What He wants comes first. When I was a firefighter I adopted a favorite Scripture and actually wore it into battle on my helmet. The scripture was "If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. Romans 14:8". Yesterday as I was looking back on my life, I was reminded of this scripture and realized the similarity with the theme of I am Second. I was kinda surprised that I had stopped using this scripture. Before I would enter a burning house, I'd quote Romans 14:8. I haven't stopped to realize until now that everyday we face is a life threatening situation. That fact got me to questioning whether or not I truly understood what it meant to be second. I've questioned my situation and questioned the reasoning behind it. I've doubted the outcome. I've found myself at times down. I had to stop and ask what changed. Before I was diagnosed on October 28th, 2011, I had no problem saying I am second. God's will for my life, is my will for my life. It was only after His will for my life went a different direction than my will did that I started to question and doubt. As long as everything was going good, I had no problems. That doesn't sound like what I've been preaching. Today is January 1st, 2012. Start of a new year. Today I pledge to trust in Christ with my life as I have in the past. He brought me out of every burning building I ever entered and I know if it be His will, He will bring me through this. But I will trust in Him. If I live, I live for the Lord; and if I die, I die for the Lord. Therefore, whether I live or die, I belong to the Lord. Happy New Year now has a new meaning. My name is Jason Horn and I Am Second!!!